Happy Heavenly Birthday + A Note to Grieving Mothers After a Miscarriage or Stillbirth

Earlier this month was our sweet baby boy’s first birthday in heaven. I really can’t believe it’s already been a year… the shortest, yet longest year of my life, for many reasons.

Though we never got to bring him home, have him wear all the “little brother” shirts we had gotten for him, or snuggle on the couch as a family, we will forever hold him in our hearts and we can smile knowing he is beyond happy in heaven.

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Maintaining a Grateful Heart

With so much to be grateful for, how is it that sometimes I/me/we struggle to find things to be grateful for? You know, the type of heartfelt thanks that goes beyond the “thank you for the food I’m eating, the roof over my head, the clothes on my back” type thing.

We get caught up in the hustle and bustle of life – school, work, marriage, kids, a messy house, a traveling spouse, a big move, what have you – the challenges of the day seem to always get the better of us. Then, often times life happens. A huge change, something tragic, horrifying, “how could God let this happen” type thing and finding joy and gratitude seems literally impossible – even WRONG sometimes.  Continue reading

Words of the New Year

I’m a total sucker for New Years Resolutions. I’m a natural-born list maker so this makes total sense. But really, I love the excuse for a fresh start, even if it’s just another day or another page on a calendar.

As I get older, and busier, I have adopted a different “resolution” method. Instead of specifics like traveling more, working out every day of the week or promising myself I am not going to eat so much chocolate and wine (who am I kidding) – I have started to pick words or phrases at the recommendation of several smart people 😉   Continue reading

Pregnancy After Loss // Expecting Our Rainbow Baby

As I’m sitting here in complete awe, wonder, and insanely deep gratitude for the new life growing inside of me, I often reflect on the events that brought me here with my growing rainbow baby. After losing our son Michael last year, I experienced a whirlwind of emotions – many of which were so ugly and scary my heart literally aches when I think about it or imagine another mother in the same situation. Nevertheless, even with all the ugly, so much beauty and growth came from that time in my life. Continue reading

When Time Passes All Too Quickly, Really Slowly. (This time it’s a good thing!!)

Now that the rush of Christmas is over, I can finally take a breather and digest the last few crazy weeks and everything I packed into them – well sort of. I seem to have jam packed each day in between Christmas and New Years as well #norestfortheweary. Anyways, the weekend before Christmas my hubby finally graduated from his federal law enforcement training. It’s been a long, long 7 months but now looking back, I can’t believe it’s already over! I seriously could not be any more proud of my hubby, and really, us as a team. Continue reading

Getting into the Holiday Spirit + JORD Watch Giveaway

Happy December!
If it wasn’t for my mom last minute inviting G and I to go Christmas tree shopping after church one Sunday, I literally may not have gotten one. Ok, ok, that may or may not not be entirely true. Processed with VSCO with hb2 presetI honestly love Christmas, it’s just been hard for me to really get into the Holiday spirit this year with “the” move coming up and my hubby away at training and decorating/gift shopping has definitely NOT been on my radar. Poor hubs missed Thanksgiving and will miss Christmas with us as well. Of course, time marches on, and so will we. We are nearing the end though, and that light at the end of the tunnel couldn’t look any sweeter!

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Travel Together: Washington, D.C.

If you get jet-lag from long flights, do you get toddler-lag from traveling ANY DISTANCE with a toddler?! I vote yes. We just got home from our trip to D.C. and the state of my house pretty much matches to the state of my brain. Since I live and travel with miss Tiger Lily herself I had to totally psych myself up for each trek. I mean, does time actually go by slower on a plane with a toddler? Continue reading